Within the last three months, I have attended more weddings compared to the last five years of my life. It is a celebration of the culmination of two peoples’ love and relationship, plus a few hundred people, even Covid 19 ain’t got nothing on it.
I guess it must feel great making and sharing lifelong vows, having a legal and emotional safety net, feeling desired, and most importantly, not lonely. Naturally, I enjoy romance or the idea of it, and I enjoy parties that celebrate it, however, if I were to put myself in that state of mind, the mere thought of it feels invasive and exhausting.
While I have conflicting emotions and thoughts about the subject matter, something about watching your single peers’ crossover swiftly to the other side makes you raise an eyebrow even when you know it is barely a priority on your do-to list.
Every time I leave a wedding; it feels like my single bubble is getting thinner and I have caught myself a few times wondering if I am missing out(I’m good love, enjoy). I do not want to label it as pressure because while I have some thoughts about it, it is hardly a stressor. I wonder if other guests experience these post-wedding blues.
Sometimes I think the wedding invite should come with a free therapy session or is that too much to ask? Maybe a support group should suffice. We all know healthcare is expensive and there is only so much you can do with the extortion money from aso-ebi sales.
I am joking guys, please do not cancel me. I’m just a single baby girl feeling feelings while trying to make sense of everything.